4 months till graduation

Tomorrow brings the end of February. Tomorrow is also my wonderful mother's birthday. But today, today I realized how little time I have to decide where I will get my post-secondary education. Today, as I worked beside my mother cleaning houses as I do every weekend (except this one, didn't want her working on her birthday, Friday was more convenient as I had to get blood drawn, plus it was an early out), I related to her a conversation I had with Mrs. K (my AVID teacher). I told her how she constantly reminds me to tell her (my mom) that I will soon be gone, how I need to go after my own goals, after my own dreams, after my own life and journey. I told my mom how the conversation between me and Mrs. K included her (my mom's) reason for missing me, the constant shouting and ruckus I cause at home. My mom responded with tears in her eyes, by saying, "Si, tu eres la que alegras la casa." Which means, "Yes, you are the one that brightens up our home." I didn't want to cry so instead I burst up laughing, a normal reaction for me. Haha. But it made me realize how little time I have with my family if I do go away for college. It made me realize how much my mom's life will change, how much I will be missed, and how much I will miss my family, especially my hardworking, sensitive, hilarious, and amazing mother. My super mom. It also made me realize how much we take time for granted, because we don't have much.

These four years have definitely gone by so fast, and I sometimes wish I had more time to wallow in the easiness that is high school, but I realize that my life needs to go on, and that I need to accomplish my goals.

I guess this is just a mom appreciation post, or multiple small realization posts incorrectly titled '4 months till graduation.'